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Monday, July 12, 2010

Salam!

I don't post often because the fingers on my right hand sometimes give out this irritating electric shocks when I type (Nerve thing). They sometimes also start to shiver. The shivering part is because of the medication. I'm still working on endurance for my hands..doing light muscle exercises etc.
Same goes for my right leg. It still can't stand on it's own or it'll get all shaky and I might fall. But I can balance on one leg in water though..lol. Some things like tip-toeing you can just do it in water due to the buoyancy but it's definitely impossible on land.

If you look at patients, their injured leg is usually smaller than the other leg because of the lack of muscle.. and my 2 legs are definitely comparable =D. Because when the leg is injured you don't use it that often which causes the muscle mass to be reduced. That's why you hear that people build all that muscle from exercising for like 10 years, but when they get injured, they can lose all that muscle in like a week.
For me, I gain some muscle during all that training in the 1st year of Poly. But being sick and in the hospital for like 9 days, I lost like about 8kg that time. Muscle weighs more than fats.

The doctors say that mine is a rare condition- Churg Strauss Syndrome, which affects a lot of stuff internally. But mostly my nerves. Those electric shock feeling that I feel almost all the time in my legs, hand, thighs and feet and also constant cramps on my calf.
So this nerve thing and all takes some time to heal, it's not a broken bone or torn ligament that you can predict the healing process. Which leaves my mother and I to think that also due to my mobility I might not be ready to start school in OCT just yet. Hmmm. I might ask for deferment for another semester which means graduating a year late instead of one semester.

Sometimes when you're alone too much, with nothing to distract you..you start to think about A LOT of different things..negative ones or even good ones..believe me. Oh and guess what? I've not ridden a bus for more than 3 months. Lol.
Phew! Writing all this stuff down is quite theraputic =D. Whatever it is I must now just concentrate on getting better. That's the most important thing. Be confident and positive that only Allah is the true healer. And everything happens for a reason, no point in being sad..but sometimes like I said, with not much things to distract you..you start thinking too much.

Sometimes you just receive what you need and not necessarily what you want. I've been reading a lot of books though, which is a good thing cause I have all the time in the world =D.
K now, salam alaikum! Take care of your food and health!

P.S: Happy 18th to Zahira if you're reading this! Also to Dinah and Fatanah on the upcoming 14th!

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